The Two-Month Mark.

I have hit the two-month mark of being in a new place, and inevitably, that means I've just wrestled with my first case of homesickness.

The thrill of being in a new place hasn't faded yet, because I'm still really enjoying the area and exploring new places with new friends. But I've realized that I haven't really let myself truly relax for over two months now and it's starting to wear on me.

I'm still feeling people out and I haven't been able to be my complete, ridiculous self and it has been pretty exhausting. I feel like I've been constantly censoring myself and holding back because I'm not totally comfortable yet, and I don't want to make other people uncomfortable if they don't get my (sometimes dark/sarcastic) sense of humor. I do have my fellow 'Zonie Eloisa who is the only person at this point that I can totally be myself around, and that really has helped me feel more at ease, but she and I have had different schedules because I started working so we haven't seen each other as much as I would like.

Plus, I am the new girl at work again. I just started a new job at a restaurant where they threw me immediately into training for three solid days this past weekend. And I know that working at a restaurant is not the most difficult job in the world, although sometimes people don't realize how complex it can be at times trying to make sure everything runs smoothly, but it has been hard trying to settle in again. There are new names to learn, protocols to get down, menus to memorize (including 48 beers on tap), among other things. And that is just a lot for my poor little brain to take along with classes.

On top of that, I got the job and started right away, like the day after I went in and applied which was a little sooner than I had been expecting. I thought I'd at least have to drop off more than one resume/application before getting a job, and at least have more than one interview. It was kind of cool getting a job so fast though. I walked in and dropped off an application and walked out with a job. I sat down with the General Manager/one of the owners and he liked me so much he hired me on the spot. That being said, I was expecting him to at least give me a "we'll call you" not a "can you start tomorrow?" Not that I'm complaining! It's just one more thing that is going to take some adjusting to, that's all. I just need to fall into a rhythm with work and school. Hopefully I'll just be working weekends so I can focus on school during the week.  

I was Skyping with my parents the other day (which actually helped with the homesickness factor) and my mom said that she thinks I've been a little homesick because I've been tired, and she's probably right. Because let's face it my mom is almost always right...

I am really looking forward to going home for Thanksgiving though, and I'm glad that I get to be home for an entire week. It will be a nice little dose of home to tide me over until Christmas.

So for now, I'll keep pouring myself cups on liquid motivation and try to power-through until the holidays come around. And hopefully the uneasiness will fade with time.

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